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| * ~ Intricate, Earth Friendly, Everyday Wearable Art ~ * Friendship, Hardship, Heartache, and Joy ... |
| March 8, 2008 |
| *wow* Lots if changes for us here ... Has it all just been a dream ?!? 7 years ago i was 23 years old, mother of three boys, going through the divorce from heck. Stay at home mommy sent out into the real world to work three jobs. I never intended on starting Penni Patches. I only wanted a pair of patchwork pants that i couldnt afford because i was able to express myself that way once again. So 7 years Later... My stitching ability has grown tremendously, with a little help from a whole lot of stitchin sisters i just dont have room to name, my gramma, and my mother. I can claim i have a successful business of my own, by successful for me being when applied and focused i could maintain my website, and support my family off of it completely, staying home with my children. Thanks to all of you. Ive come to realize though that 7 years ago i fell apart and though taking a moment every once in awhile to put myself back together, finiding pieces of myself here and there along the way i have never truly sat down and given myself a full minute to breathe and figure it all out. I entered into the last big change of my life a complete wreck, and thats something ive never completely recovered from. Thus causing me to not be able to be all that i can be. Unorganized, shipping out packages late, finishing orders late, missing important moments in the life of my children i cant get back. Important moments of my own life slipped on by that i have missed as well... Your support has been tremendous, and enabled me to be here right now making all of these realizations. and as im about to enter into my next big life change, ( i also very recently learned my life cycle number is 7 , something i didnt used to believe in, but looking back i have to say i cannot argue there is a significance in every 7 years of my life ) I want to start this cycle out clean, new, with an open mind, and heart. i need to take a selfish complete minute for myself to make that happen. I have lots of negatvity in my life i need to weed out, lots of old emotional scars on my heart i need to allow to heal, in order to be able to continue doing this. There are some of you that were very patient with me, that i want to make it up to ... something that may take me all year, but something i will do ... The biggest compliment i get most often from all of you is that you can feel the love i put into my pieces each and every time you put them on. ive come to a place where im empty and im stressed, and thats an energy i dont want to pass onto all of you. i need to reconnect with my children. Ive somehow lost that connection with my three boys in the past year. and by supporting handmade , one of the things you support along with that is me being home raising my children. So i must take the time to fix all of that in my life. I've been moving for what feels like a year now. Almost out of here now. The only place i've lived in my whole life. I grew up here. Thinking i didnt want to be anywhere else. It's been an emotional roller coaster for me , but the ride coming to an end without a crash, leaving me ready to move on to brighter things. Enabling me to bend with the wind as it blows my way. I want to show my children the whole big world out there that i had to find on my own not even knowing it was out there. I was going to shut down the site for a little bit but realistically i cant. I still have a family to support. But im taking the pressure off of myself. Im not going to stress about updates, promising themm, and then having them fall through because i buckled under pressure and or just couldnt make them happen. There is alot of negativity in the stitchin bitch community these days as well. Alot of bickering about copying designs, etc. Putting alot of pressure on not just me, but others i know , almost a fear of being afraid somethig might look similiar to someone else's work. At a point in time where well... fashion has been repeating it self for decades. most of everything we all make has been made at some point in history. I miss just being outside on the trampoline with my kiddos and watching the clouds float by, giving me inspiration for my newest creation. Not having to worry someone may have seen the same cloud and gotten the same idea. I am going to be taking the time though to clean out my file managers and such, so you may find missing pages , pictures etc. 3 years of learning web design, and not being very organized equals one big mess amongst my files ... I am moving back in with my gramma for a little bit. To save some money, allow myself to relax, and figure out my place in life. unsure of where im going to end up in the end. But gracefully accepting where it is im supposed to be going. Im starting a blog. As writing in my journal is something i have not done for again 7 years. , and something that used to help me keep my brain and heart in check. I invite all of you to join me on my journey. Feel free to encourage, critique, and pass on any wisdom you may have ") *** Coming to realize , life will never not be crazy with 4 kids running around, and cause well im a little bit crazy myself. i give up on everything being perfect, "normal" and smooth all of the time. But my short term goal being to come back full force this fall, organized,, healed, completely open minded, and ready for you all this round :) *** *WOW* sorry for the whole first chapter in the book im finally going to write coming out at once, But for those of you that are still reading... please hop on , keeping both hands and feet inside the car at all times, and enjoy the ride. Heres a hug for each and every one of you that have stuck by me through all of this. And those just finding us, one for you too .. From the bottom of my heart ... HuGs and Blessings, Penni Laine In My Moments of Absence Please check out my links page for links to many other wonderful talented Handmade Artists like myself ... |
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| Please Note anyone who had our email address saved. My aol account was hacked and i no longer use aol . If you wrote us and never got a reply, we probably never got the email. Please add the new email PenniLaine@gmail.com to your address book. |
| * ~ WOW *** Im at a HuGe breaking point in my life, Please take the time to read my first blog entry below. To remain updated join the mailing list. I will be discounting any remaining inventory soon , as we finish moving ... |
| March 28, 2008 |
| **We had some kind of interruption in service for a miinute that im still not quite sure of the source... but i think were fixed again ? :) *** We made it to the new place pretty much completely ... anything of importance with me... sorting through three generations of packrats , deciding what to keep what not to keep ... Going from a bedroom farmHouse to sharing space and pretty much compacting myself into a studio sized basement ... You truly dont appreciate some things until you lose them ... This Place i grew up in ... this one horse town i couldnt wait to get out of ... The simple little things ... learning one person really can make a difference in the world one little city at a time ... Those thoughts are definately going to be the next write up ... But for now i must continue to work on unpacking ... i dunno which was harder or more fun ..... ill post some pictures of my new creative space soon ...... |
| I have though added a video for you all to see from the Age of Aquarius Fashion show i did for the Butler Art Center In February ... Just to prove i am still from time to time working :) ill be asking for some feedback as well ... i really am at one of what i think is going to be biggest life changes for me , and i guess im just not sure which direction to take My Penni Patches right now .......Not like shutting it down or anything Just where does my current evolution fit in with it all ?!? More soon i promise ... you guys are great thanks for listening ......... well reading .... listening with your eyes and your hearts ........ |